sex and welfare checks
what else did i expect this to be
falling for a boy
who was in it cause he needed me
three years of newports, little debbies
and corned beef in a can
clothes to start your life over
as a free man
you wanted me
to penetrate you with my eyes
to remind you of the beauty
that lied beyond the inside
to caress your hand
and wipe away your tears
eliminate your fears
of a future that is bleak
you turned that around on me
thinking i was the one who was weak
still stuck in a phase
as long as heaven will be
no respect i'm saying
you have no respect for me
i don't wish you any harm
not even a bruise
like the one you left on my arm
just wish you gone
with a snap of my fingers
and a wiggle of my nose
there was no need for this to come to blows
although that chicken head
you brought to my house
and slept with in your bed
deserves a crack upside the head
if i were any other woman
her ass would be dead
and you'd be back in the man's bed
looking at those same cold concrete walls
keeping your boxers on in the shower stall
and you say i'm nothing
nothing but stress
all this time
trying to make my paycheck stretch
to mantain the both of us
the most you could do was roll a dutch
so we could fuck
because i couldn't do it
unless i was high
after a while couldn't even look in your eyes
that's when i knew i was caught in a lie
you're digging your own ditch
with your belief
that the key to life is being rich
calling me a bitch
your a ridiculous nigga
who needs a chicken head by his side
in order to feel bigga
i've waited my whole life
for a man i could adore
that's what you were in our dreamland
before your reality walked through my door
you just kept taking more, more and more
my pussy maybe deep
but my patience doesn't go on forever
you may survive as a hustler
but you are not very clever
because you just destroyed what
you've been looking for your whole life
and i may sound like bitter spice
but i've been there, done this before
and don't blame myself for
thinking this time it could be more
everything is worth a try
including an end
to these days full of cry
because i'd rather be coming
home to an empty house
then be coming home to a lie
on this last wednesday in july